Me & My Boys

Wednesday, January 30, 2013

I was Jillian Michael'd last night...

There are some things I really can't wait for:

1. To wear my wedding ring again. It's been over 2 years.
2. To put my jeans on and not having to squeeze into them.
3. To actually buy some of those cute workout clothes.

But yesterday I fessed up to my coach how frustrated I was with my weight loss. I always just think 'it's just the way my body is'. My coach has not been very communicative, but when I received her email last night, I felt like I was in the Biggest Loser gym and had Jillian Michaels in my face. I literally had to own up to all my excuses and realize that everything she was saying was completely true. Whether or not I was embarrassed, they were true. Yes I'm pushing myself, but I could push myself more. Yes I'm making better choices, but not like I need too. My body needs to reset itself with apparently a week of 100% clean eating. I broke down, completely, and felt like my eyes were opened. Thankfully Chris sat there and listened to me cry for awhile so I could just get it all out.

Today, I'm going to take one meal/section of the day at a time instead of thinking of the whole day. I need to get to the grocery store, but really don't want to be on the roads this morning, so I'm trying to make it work. A big hurdle will be getting over the idea that food comforts me. Especially after long days or on weekends. I guess I thought I was all in, but apparently I wasn't. :) Here goes.....

Saturday, January 26, 2013

Week 3 Update

So, I had myself a little pity party almost all week. I weighed myself this morning and I ended the week up 1 pound. So, I'm still down three and I have to remind myself that at least I'm losing, but I allowed it to be a black cloud over my head this week. I do appreciate all the encouragement I'm getting - it really does mean a lot to me!!

I still love the workouts. Love Love Love. I missed Friday's workout because of the billion excuses I came up with (including Brady being sick), but as the morning went on, I realized I mentally should have just got up and gone. Lesson learned. I kicked the bag's butt today!!

I tried another new recipe this week: homemade turkey balls (a recipe from my coach). Not really sure what I thought of them, but they are supposed to be a good protein source so I'll learn to like them. I've also been adding my whey strawberry flavored protein powder to my yogurt. Makes a big (and yummy) difference!!

There is nothing better than cuddling with your doggy when you aren't feeling well (except for cuddling with mommy)

Thursday, January 24, 2013

A little frustrated

I'm a little frustrated this week, although this is what happened in the middle of the week last week too. I weighed myself yesterday (and again today because I'm freaking out), and I have fluctuated up 2 pounds. I get the whole muscle weighs more, blah blah blah. I'm frustrated because I am working out harder than I ever have, more days then I ever have, early in the morning which is supposed to be great for your metabolism too. I'm making better food choices, eating way less, and yes, I am not a perfect eater, but shouldn't the combination of the above make the weight just start to come off more quickly?? I need to stay focused, but it's really hard not to dwell and freak out.

And here are a few more pictures of Brady. We had an awesome moment yesterday - he went potty in his potty chair!!!

This is where he originally decided he wanted to sit on his potty chair. He usually just uses it as a step stool to reach the sink in the bathroom, so at least he was sitting on it for once. It was just not where I expected to find him. :)

His 'latest and greatest' new idea: move the chairs to the CD player and try to put on the music. It's pretty cute until last night I discovered this also relates to moving the kitchen chair up to the bar so he can reach whatever is on the bar. He is growing up way too fast!!!

Monday, January 21, 2013

Week 2 in the books

Goals update for week 2:

* My body was definitely more tired the 2nd week. On Wednesday, my legs felt like lead.
* I had a headache from Wednesday through Friday and I actually missed class on Thursday morning because of it. I didn't feel guilty since I didn't feel well, but I was ready to get in there again on Friday.
* I allowed myself to snack more. I came up with excuses to make it ok. This is not ok and I will do better this week!
* I did try a new recipe each week. The first one was from the manual they gave us. The smoke detector went off like 5x during that episode. I think I'll wait until I can grill the steak. :) Last week we tried ground turkey for the first time. I mixed it in with the lean ground beef for spaghetti. It wasn't bad. Probably an acquired taste!
* I still feel fantastic. I actually caught myself thinking 'I don't even care if I don't lose weight I just feel so good'. Clearly I need to lose weight, but I love how wonderful and strong I feel.
* Although I do feel great, I do try and nap. I feel like I need it. So on my days off and weekends, I lay down when Brady does. That's used to be the time I would clean, etc, so I feel like I am getting behind on things, but I do need my sleep!
* My alarm starts going off at 4, then my phone alarm goes off at 4:05am, and I have been hitting snooze, so lately I've been getting up a little later (4:15) and not getting to class until 4:45.
* Stats: my coach checked my weight and body fat comp today. I am down 4 pounds and for body fat, I am down almost 1 point. She said that goes down slower, but since it's outrageously high, I want to see that go down fast. :)

Here are a few pictures:

This is what our house looks like when Mr. Tornado does not take a nap...