Pictures

Leo and Millie

 Waukee football game

Library time

 The Ninja Turtle battle is real

Class is over - his turn to run!

First Day of School

Brady started preschool September 9th.   He loves it!  It’s the same school as last year and he seems very comfortable there!  We also carpool with his friend Colin so he has lots of fun with that!

Celebrating a life

Yesterday was a year anniversary for our baby's due date.  Instead of hosting a DR party for our friends last weekend we would have been hosting a first birthday party.   I wanted to start a simple tradition for our family to remember that little life we lost on earth but will someday be reunited with so I bought three yellow helium balloons.  We went to the park, we each said a little something and released them together.   It was really sweet!

Brady praying and saying goodbye to the balloons forever :)

I have been trying to pin point why the past few years I have felt like I have lost control on things (weight, eating, drinking, patience and positive thinking).  I think that there were just a bunch of things that happened that I didn't take the time to process and deal with.   I just moved on.  Almost two years ago, we had to put Drake to sleep.  Just a few days later we hopped on a plane for my sisters wedding (which was amazing).  Right after the wedding I started six weeks of fertility treatments.   Then I became pregnant.   Eight weeks later I was told the baby was no longer alive and so I had a D&C.   I had only one day to rest thanks to my mom's help.  Brady started school that fall on the baby's due date.  Shortly after that I had MAJOR anxiety about leaving Brady for our trip.  And then I had to actually leave him for nine days.  After that I just got In a funk and ate and drank every single emotion.  

I felt freed last night though.  It stinks - 1 was such a fun age.  But it's like time is passing and it's ok to move on.   Hopefully now I can regain my footing.  

Iowa State Fair

Better late than never.   I can't believe I am putting this in writing but I "think" I am becoming an Iowa State Fair person?!!!???  Thanks to Brady of course!