I love my church so much. I love the feeling of peace. Simple peace. I feel like my week just aligns correctly when we start off with church on Sundays. Sometimes you wonder as a parent if you are doing things right. Let's face it, you will never do everything right. Brady watches way too much TV, doesn't get enough socialization and is not a healthy eater. But, he does go to church with me on weekends, participates in Awana at church and is learning about Jesus. When I walk up those steps at church listening to the music and think about how much Brady likes going to church, I KNOW that I am doing this part right. Faith is important to me and I am showing him that, not just talking about it.
He has also been to the gym with me so much during his little life. I want him to know that being healthy is a priority too and that his life will be so much easier in all areas if he maintains a healthy lifestyle.
Other things have been on my mind as well. I'm freaked out thinking about holiday food. I signed up for a 5 week program at the gym to keep myself in-line for the holidays. I'm basically paying for them to weigh and measure me, but hopefully that's what I'll need. I've fluctuated up a few pounds. They say weight loss is 80% nutrition and 20% working out. But the real truth is that it's 100% mental. And I've struggled with that the last few months. We (I) started fertility treatments about 4+ weeks ago. Before that and because of that, the nerves got the better of my food/drink habits. I've been able to control it over the past few weeks, but would at least like to see the scale start going back down again, not up. We'll see. The meds have affected me more this time. About that......
I realized that this is my 4th time going through this. I thought it would be a breeze (I'm an old pro at this, right???), but maybe since I'm more "in tune" to my body, I'm noticing the side affects. I was on a antibiotic for 7 days. It made me nauseous - I wanted to eat to calm my stomach, but it didn't make me feel better. I also had to eat carbs with it, so carbs at night it was. The shots sometimes hurt, I wonder if I'm hitting scar tissue or something. The patches I have to wear on my back/shoulders are making me extremely emotional. I just want to cry all the time it seems like. And I'm just achy down by my lower stomach. It feels like when I had to go through the stimulation phase. When you move, it aches. It will go by fast though. The morning of December 16th, we'll find out how many of the three frozen embryos survived the thawing process and we'll go in that morning for the transfer. And then we will be broke as joke again. :) So that's that. I didn't write down anything from when I went through all this the first three times and I wish I had.
One more thought, I love posting stuff on Facebook and seeing my diverse group of family and friends who like my pictures. It's so awesome to have people from so many different parts of your life - old jobs, old part-time jobs, friends of family, family, distant family, play groups, college, high school, the gym, neighbors, old bosses. I love it - I love having these people in my life.
I heard "Mom, come find me" and this is what I saw. :)
New coat and snow pants - getting ready to go outside and play!
Meeting Santa yesterday. This was totally worth the $12!! I love everything about this picture!!
