Skipping classes

Last week was a week of skipping classes.  I skipped Tuesday morning because once again, I was just super tired.  Sometimes the thought of working out and then not being able to nap that day just makes me tired.  :)  I also skipped my church class on Wednesday night.  Friday I skipped my workout again because of the snow.  Drake had me up at 3:45 and my alarm went off at 4:10.  They post by 4:15 if classes are cancelled because of the weather, so I laid back down for five minutes and the next thing I knew, it was 5:15.  Oops.  And I skipped Saturday because Chris was out of town all weekend and so I had Brady all to myself!!  No babysitter means no workout at Goals.

I have been super busy, but there isn't much to update on my Goals progress.  I'm really just embarrassed that I still can't control my eating enough to lost weight.  Last Monday, my weight was still at my midpoint weight - down 5.2 pounds total.  My body fat went down another .3.  If only I could tell that voice in my head to shut up every time I wanted to snack.  I have noticed that my muffin top is slowly going away.  I am toning up at least!  No matter how fantastic the workouts are, it's hard to be motivated when the scale isn't going down.  Completely my OWN fault.  Even though I am not a fan of my personal coach, I am the only one to blame.  I would probably still snack even if she was responsive.  I did work out with her last Thursday during kickboxing and it was my hardest workout yet.  I practically crawled to my water bottle for a drink and could feel it in my lungs that whole day. 

My sister Melissa and I talk a lot about this process for me.  I told her I appreciate her letting me take over our conversations about this since this process is taking over my life right now.  We both share an interest in health and fitness, and she always knows just want to say to me to get me motivated again.  I told her I wished she lived here and we could have done this together.  I was telling her Friday night that I think in my head, I have given up on the challenge aspect of this.  Clearly I don't know what challenge means since I am not doing as great as I wanted to on the nutrition part.  She made me realize that there is still two weeks left and I will want to look back on this knowing I didn't give up towards the end because of fear of failing (typical Heidi-style).  So, this week I am not skipping workouts no matter what!  And I will track my food and not give up in my head.  I know I'm a slow work in progress.  I feel lucky that after this I will continue with a membership there so I don't have to give up these great workouts and I will be surrounded with workout friends who can still give me pointers on nutrition.  I'll get there, at a turtles pace....

And for the best part, pictures of my Brady:

 

Playing in the snow on Friday

With my Mom & Dad