Pregnant or Not Pregnant?

We had one surviving embryo out of the three.  Dr. Young explained that they did start a new freezing/thawing process at the end of 2010, but since ours were frozen at the beginning of 2010 they had to use the old way.  He said there's a better success rate with the new process.  I had the nurse call me that morning.  She called at 10am to tell me that two of them weren't looking right, but the one looked like it would survive.  I cried a little, almost like I was grieving a little.  I thought of those little ones for three years and that morning talked to them and told them to be strong.  And here they were almost gone.  It was a little sad. 

The procedure itself is not supposed to be bad.  I had to arrive at the office with a full bladder.  It would have been fine, except they attach the embryo with a catheter and because of the way my cervix is tilted, they had to switch catheters three times....  The whole time with the ultrasound wand pushing down on my bladder.  A procedure that was to take 5/10 minutes took 20 minutes.  It was brutal because of the full bladder, to be honest.

And then bed rest for two days.  I was so grateful my mom came to help with Brady.  That was the best part of bed rest - knowing Brady was out and about playing and having fun helped me relax.  I missed her tons the next day after she left and so did Brady.  However, bed rest brought out the number one reason why I strongly disliked (I don't want to use the word hate, although that's how I feel) being pregnant.  I know Chris's intentions are good, but even after bed rest, it's all the questions - should you be doing that?  Should you be lifting him?  I just want to scream "I'M JUST PREGNANT!!!".  People do all sorts of things (for example: run) when they are pregnant, but I always feel like I am being handled with extra care and it drives me nuts. 

So, am I pregnant or not?  It's a long wait to find out.  My next appointment is Saturday, December 28th.  Maybe if that turns out good, I can start to actually accept the fact that this might work?  And my bet is --- if it works --- it's a girl. 
 

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Happy 3rd Birthday Brady!!

On Tuesday, December 10th, my little boo turned 3!!!  He is such a good kid.  I always tell people he makes being a parent so easy.  And he's so funny, as every parent thinks their kid is.  This year, he was at a perfect age to actually "celebrate" and we lived it up!!!  He understood about opening presents (at one point before his birthday party, I saw out of the corner of my eye tissue paper flying up in the air - he was excited to start opening presents!).

We had his birthday party at Chris's parents house in Carroll the Sunday before since both families were in town that day.  It worked out perfectly.  We did a Buzz Lightyear/Toy Story theme with balloons and cupcakes.  He was so excited!  And on his birthday, we met our play group at Monkey Joes that day and Chris and I took him to Chucky Cheese that night for supper.  He had a blast and was completely worn out.  Aside from your kid verbalizing just how much they love you, watching them have the time of their life is just as great.  Life doesn't get much better than that!

His stats from his 3 year check up:
Weight: 36.8 pounds (88th percentile)
Height: 38.9 inches (81st percentile)

Checking out his first present - Toy Story figurines

 

Happy Birthday to You!!

 

One tired little birthday boy

 

Chucky Cheese!

It's getting real!

Looking at my med calendar this morning, things got real pretty fast.  And here is a picture of my meds for tomorrow (some in the morning, some at dinner and one at night).  Yippee.  I can't wait until tomorrow to see in what direction our future will go!!! 

No triplets!! Most likely..

Ok.  I've figured it out.  Thank goodness for nice nurses.  They do have to thaw all three embryos since they were frozen together (most likely because one was weaker so they put them all together).  They have come up with a new procedure though where they can re-freeze one if they all three survive.  They would still put two back in me.  We will find out when we go in how many have survived the thawing procedure.  Monday will be a long day of waiting!!

A little Stressed???

Fertility treatment update:

Last week was my week of no shots.  Just patches and baby aspirin.  Yay.  My stomach is bruised and marked up and it's time for that to heal.  It was also nice to travel back home for my family's Christmas and not have to worry about keeping the Lupron shot cold. 

I had my ultrasound and blood work today.  Things look good and we are good to go for next Monday at 2:30.  My nurse was a girl I went through firefighter training with and she was one of my nurses last time, so it was fun to see her again.  Reality has set in though - bed rest for two days after transfer, walking only for the next few weeks after that, no kickboxing and of course, the standard recommendations for working out when pregnant.  And patches and booty shot through 12 weeks gestation.  I really dislike being pregnant.  I know, I know, it's worth it and I am excited to have a baby.  I do hope this works.

We encountered a hiccup today though that has me stressed!  Lately I haven't been able to get my act together.  Not working out, I can't keep up around the house, I just can't get organized.  So of course, payment and notarized consent form was due today.  I did realize the payment quote was off by $1K, so I emailed and luckily I was right.  She told me it was due today, but of course the front desk acted confused that payment was due.  WT*???  So then since we didn't get the form notarized and when I called this morning, they said I could bring it in and the nurses were notaries and could sign it and Chris could just swing by after work.  So I brought it in, was told to have the nurses sign it, the nurses told me the front desk would sign it and again, the front desk girl acted annoyed.  WT*???  So when Chris stopped in today to sign it, they noticed the number of embryo slot wasn't filled in.  So he said it was going to be 3, since that is what we were told would happen when we went through this with Brady.  The front desk said that isn't typical and they only do one at a time.  WTF.  Seriously.  Shouldn't they have told us this? 
They shouldn't assume that after three years, we should know if their procedures have changed or not.  Not only that, but I don't know if I can go through this two more times for a total of SIX times.  I guess I will be calling them again tomorrow morning!  And yes, I'm having a beer tonight because I'm stressed!!!